LONELY AS CAN BE   

for the second hour the shower's still on
can't look at myself hanging from the wall
i knew you'd sail over my sea                    
everything's in it's place
i wasn't enough                                   

i wanna be as lonely as i can be
i wanna feel as lonely as i can feel

my vacant eyes
get only phony smiles                     
under the flashing lights
hollow hearts,
they will hunt you down
crawling down the bed                                                 
i'm bursting out

i wanna be as lonely as i can be
if i need to be without you
i wanna feel as lonely as i can feel
so i lay down by her side

let's be lonely together
weeping soul
beat my injured mind
out of me

let's be lonely together
we're freezing out
the veil of death
in the face of the sun

so i lay down by your side

 

TINY OCEANS

soon i'll be fading            
i was only faking
for you to recover
from us

tiny ocean subsided under our clouds         
forgotten shadows loomed on the walls

i was hoping that someday i
won't see you aching
you said don't you stop

i fell in my tiny ocean
your howling breeze
raging to get free                    

i left you on the island   
my falling trees
you tried to reach

you said the sky is getting
darker my friend
we need to get off the weight

i saw you drifting
away from the storm
you got tired to fight for my cause

 

PILLOWS FALLING IN NEW YORK   

on the balcony 21st floor
pillows falling on the street
we rushed through the crowd
light pouring from your eyes

watching the city waking up
walking through smoke
through our past
where your galaxy resonated
in my lonely universe

wandering in new york on the verge of a new dawn
we jumped off the moving train in marseille where we broke up
from the mountain top to this tiny restaurant
feeling alone
sometimes whole

inside the mystery of the unknown
marveled at the sparkling road
flew through a jungle at high speed
makes you wonder
what's there
beneath this all

wandering in new york on the verge of a new dawn
held you in the park
you were my everything in amsterdam
from the mountain top to this tiny restaurant
feeling alone
sometimes whole

 

YOU STARTED A WAR     

there's a hole in the world that's where it all starts
loneliness so deep it echoed behind the stars
we're praying for your life keep yourself together child
once i saw a dream of how to stop controlling myself

true heroes were dead and gone                             
when you started a war              
beasts came alive on the blackboard
loud was your mind
they came out all guns blazing
we fell on the floor                                                 
my god, if you'd only let me be                       

it's written on their wall stay unsure about yourself
our truth is based on being unsure about our wealth
i've seen those self-built cages lonely afternoons
the same struggle in everyone's hidden room

true heroes were dead and gone                             
when you started a war              
beasts came alive on the blackboard
loud was your mind
they came out all guns blazing
we fell on the floor     

                                 
you starved to discover pure love and warmth                                          
i see you running reckless
down the hill
in the end you got free                                                                                  
my god, if you'd only let me be                       

i don't want you anymore
i don't want you anymore
you can go to hell coz i don't need you anymore
the hole in the world whispered go and start a war

 

I'D BE NOTHING WITHOUT YOU

found a place
soft to land
forgot who i was

on the coldest morning                                        
fire was out        
i was staring in awe  
you made me come out

oh, i'd be nothing without you                                                                 
but i'm falling out of my world                                                                    

don't go, my bliss, my home
in the ruins
you showed me i belong                                                                             

throughout the days

there's a cry for change

we were marching
longing for a great embrace


i kept running away from me

you ran faster 
we collided 
we were free  

oh, i'd be nothing without you                                                                 
but i'm falling out of my world                                                                    

don't go, my bliss, my home
in the ruins
you showed me i belong                      
                                                      
we found it, no words to describe
shattered my structures, i lost you again
you held me, i've got pieces of you
never let go
 

NIGHTBIRD                
 
streets are clear
but in your heart
the traffic is stuck
you in the middle                                                  
of a crash
 
i fell on the other side                                               
i sought comfort that's gone before
the morning arrives                                             

staggering clowns on the street
dancing on cars                                       
chasing someone
hoping to get caught
 
you'll always be in my heart
you pulled me up
then i let you fall
 
don't let me be your ghost
i hope you wouldn't feel me at all                              
you were guarding my sleep
left you hanging on my tree                         
 
you flew down crossed my path
i was never sure of what you feel
your fragile smile                                                                                         

and how hard it is to do right
 
i had nothing to give
but my lonely mind
your craving arms
 
don't let me be your ghost
i hope i wouldn't feel you at all                              
you were guarding my sleep

left you hanging, hanging on
 
before the morning arrived
i sat on a bench in the park
i watched a free bird leap to the skies

 

Kirjasta: TÄLLÄ METELÖIVÄLLÄ PUDOTUKSELLA,  Henrik Artturi Linnavirta     -->TILAA KIRJA!


"Tällä metelöivällä pudotuksella kohti ikuisuutta

olet valtameri

olen hukkuvan kaipausta

välähdyksinä ajassa

ilmaan ponnistava juhla

tuoksuvan kesän kaulalla

käsien punertava kertomus

poskilla pitelemätön nauru

tässä olet poskillani

suolainen valtamereni

sinussa nukun

onnellisia unia"

"Yön pimeinä

et minua haluaisi nähdä

itkemässä naistenlehti kädessä

kalsarit polvissa

ihmiskohtaloita

kokoamassa itseäni

aamun kajossa

otan sinut kuin supersankari

viitta hulmuten

kuunsirpin ohitse

vien tähtiin"
 

"Läpi valahtava liikutus

sitä etsin peilikuvastani

jotta muistaisin olevani


sama poika

joka eksyksissä

äidin silmien alla

itki lohduttavaa

tyyntyvää hytkyntää


pehmeästi kuiskaava rauha

minun oma piiloni

siellä oli kotini

silmäkulmissa


siellä olet nyt sinä

joka selviät mistä vain

supersankari


vaikka haluaisit hajota

säpäleinä tuuleen

tästäkin kävelet ehjänä

pystyssä päin


päästäpä irti

päästä

irti


katse silmäkulmaan

silmiin ja niiden taakse

pieni poika

joka ymmärsi pienuutensa


pelastajani

syöksyy läpi usvan

murskaten nääntyneen haluttoman vastarinnan

murtuneen mieleni

laskee maahan


siinä se on

minä.

silmäkulmistani se hyökyy ulos"